FML

Epic downswing lately. Since the 19th, I'm down $52. BR is just over $500 now (thanks to rakeback!).

The last 2 days have been especially brutal, being down $31, but running at EV I'd be at -$2.71. Awesome.

Some of the more brutal ones:

KK vs QJ all in on a jack high board... Q on the turn.

QQ vs JJ all in pre, jack on the flop.

KK vs A5 all in pre. Board runs out 93482

AK vs QQ all in pre... hit an ace on the flop!!! Wait, queen on the turn.

22 vs QQ on a 28Q flop. And just for the hell of it, the other Q on the river.

Then this at the same time on 2 different tables. AK suited in the sb all in pre vs button with JJ. Board runs out 46947 (2 of my suit even). Other table, my 99 on the button vs SB's AK. Board runs out KQK8A. Yeah, awesome... those two boards are flipped around on the tables, and I win an $18 and a $10 pot instead of losing them.

And those were just in the LAST SESSION.

Other great ones in the previous day or so

67hh vs AQhh all in on 3695 2 heart board. Heart on the river.

KK vs A9 all in on a 982 board, 9 on the turn

AA vs KJ all in pre, board runs out K82J5 (4 flush without my ace even)

KK vs AJ all in pre. Board runs out Q7A4K (4 flush for his J. Dirty river)

*sigh*

I did try some 0.05/0.10 as well, which didn't end so great. Ended up down $25.85, but just means I dropped back down, and thank god I did because if I took these kind of hits at 0.05/0.10 I'd be alot worse off. Its funny, the money doesn't really even matter to me, I just want to prove to myself that I can actually make money at this and try to slowly move up in stakes. This last downswing has been pretty brutal, but I just need to stay focused and not just donate money away from donkey tilt, which I've been pretty good at (except one hand I stacked off with KJ on a K high board to a set of kings... which is kind of brutal anyways).

Overall I'm still winning, just not nearly at the rate I was. Hopefully I can turn it around soon!

Oh yeah

Funniest pot I've played recently... my call pre was meh, but after the flop is when it gets interesting.

Full Tilt Poker Game #25098940175: Table Flash - $0.02/$0.05 - No Limit Hold'em - 09:25:48 ET - 2010/10/29

Seat 1: killersan815 ($2.24)

Seat 2: corleone gz ($7.36)

Seat 3: TribalHound ($0.39)

Seat 4: Dawnraider1 ($3.48)

Seat 5: thewader ($7.65)

Seat 6: LPMENIS ($5.62)

Seat 7: Vetas82 ($2.41)

Seat 8: Poseidon041 ($7.82)

Seat 9: karmamoney ($2.82)

karmamoney posts the small blind of $0.02

killersan815 posts the big blind of $0.05

The button is in seat #8

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to thewader [6d 6c]

corleone gz folds

TribalHound raises to $0.39, and is all in

Dawnraider1 folds

thewader calls $0.39

LPMENIS folds

Vetas82 calls $0.39

Poseidon041 calls $0.39

karmamoney folds

killersan815 folds

*** FLOP *** [8d 6s 6h]

thewader checks

Vetas82 bets $0.80

Poseidon041 raises to $7.43, and is all in

thewader calls $7.26, and is all in

Vetas82 has 15 seconds left to act

Vetas82 calls $1.22, and is all in

Poseidon041 shows [Ah Jh]

TribalHound shows [Th 7h]

thewader shows [6d 6c]

Vetas82 shows [Ad Jd]

Uncalled bet of $0.17 returned to Poseidon041

*** TURN *** [8d 6s 6h] [As]

*** RIVER *** [8d 6s 6h As] [9d]

Poseidon041 shows two pair, Aces and Sixes

thewader shows four of a kind, Sixes

thewader wins side pot #2 ($9.78) with four of a kind, Sixes

Vetas82 shows two pair, Aces and Sixes

thewader wins side pot #1 ($5.65) with four of a kind, Sixes

TribalHound shows a straight, Ten high

thewader wins the main pot ($1.53) with four of a kind, Sixes

*** SUMMARY ***

Total pot $18.17 Main pot $1.63. Side pot 1 $6.06. Side pot 2 $10.48. | Rake $1.21

Board: [8d 6s 6h As 9d]

Seat 1: killersan815 (big blind) folded before the Flop

Seat 2: corleone gz didn't bet (folded)

Seat 3: TribalHound showed [Th 7h] and lost with a straight, Ten high

Seat 4: Dawnraider1 didn't bet (folded)

Seat 5: thewader showed [6d 6c] and won ($16.96) with four of a kind, Sixes

Seat 6: LPMENIS didn't bet (folded)

Seat 7: Vetas82 showed [Ad Jd] and lost with two pair, Aces and Sixes

Seat 8: Poseidon041 (button) showed [Ah Jh] and lost with two pair, Aces and Sixes

Seat 9: karmamoney (small blind) folded before the Flop

I'm baaaaack

Well, its only been 8 1/2 months since my last post! Shortly after the last one, I decided not to pursue the goal as it was taking up too much of my time and causing me to ignore other aspects of my life.

I did go to Vegas twice this summer, one for poker and the other for a wedding. The poker trip with my buddy ReMax was good... I lost a tiny bit playing live but played pretty well overall and just hit a cooler or two. Next time I'd want to go with a few more BI's so I didn't have to play so nitty. The second trip I played one session that lasted about 25 hands, got it AIPF KK vs AA, and just quit after.

I will say that since the end of September (pretty well 2 months ago), I've started to play alot more without such a demanding goal. I started with whatever I had left in my online roll in August, which was around $225-250 if I remember right. I figured that this time around I'd simply use nitty BRM and try to grind my way to some winnings. The first little while I just bounced around, as high as $270 and as low as $150 or so played 0.02/0.05 blinds. Yeah I started with 40 BIs, and it really let me play the way I've always wanted to. Thankfully I did find a few leaks in my game that I corrected, and in the past little while have really turned it around. Actually, alot of that has come in the past 11 days since I actually re-installed HEM and looked at my stats. Since Nov 9th, I've played 22 session, having only 5 losing ones, and one of the losing sesh's was 0.02. Over 14.7k hands, I've profited $142.81 winning 19.07bb/100. Hopefully I can keep up with that and really push through to the next level soon.

At this point my roll is sitting at $536.85. I did dabble with 2 tables of 0.05/0.10 tonite as well, which was somewhat successful. After playing so much .02/.05 it feels weird to be shoving in spots so deep, but I guess like anything, theres an adjustment period. It just feels weird considering I was playing .10/.25 and even some .25/.50 less than a year ago without blinking an eye. Oh well.

This time I am sticking to a strict BRM, and its much easier since I don't have a time frame I'm interested in. 100 BI at my current level meant I was able to move up and give the next level a quick try. I wanted to make it 50bi at the next level but the jump to .10/.25 would take forever. I'm trying not to look that far ahead and instead concentrate on making good decisions. Thats it for now, but it feels good to be playing again, and even better to actually be winning!

Oh yeah, and in other news, I'm getting married to the best girl in the world! I guess I'd love to be able to make enough in the next 8 months to be able to put some towards our wedding or honeymoon, but I'm not too worried about that. I'm just more excited she said yes, and that was probably the best day in my life to this point. Love you sweetie!!!